Thursday, May 24, 2007 @ 7:41 PM
fear.
once i told someone that fear comes from deep inside you. dont let yourself be overwhelmed by fear, you should be the one who overwhelm your own fears. sometimes it's easier said that done.
i'm sure all of us have fears in some part of our lives.
for me, i fear walking without hurting myself. there are times when i can just stone thinking about how i can start walking again.
it may sound silly that walking can be a fear to someone but once bitten, twice shy. i managed to walk now but i'm afraid of doing so in school without the cast.
i want to run and play so badly but i cant. i know the doctor is right. the leg is mine, if anything happens it's my problem, not his or anyone's.
but i know one day i have to walk in public without the support of cast. that's the fear i've to overcome.
have not been feeling well these days. had a terrible headache yesterday that lasted from before leo, through the piano performance and late into the night. and i feel like vomitting too. but sleep did the job for me so i'm pretty alright today =) thanks to the panadol too. i understand how it must feel for sihui to go through all the headaches she experiences sometimes. she's so strong and i know she will be blessed. yun jiejie will always support you =)
sports carnival was pretty boring. yup. dont feel like going tomorrow cos i feel kinda sick now and i think the headache is coming back. if only i can participate and do something. but just have to accept that certain things happen for a reason. my legs are tired after a day of walking too. so i better rest my legs too, since i have to go out on sat and sun. BUT i want to support the others for their games. even if i dont go, i will be there with all of you in spirit =) the friendship i get from you guys is the best gift of all =)
love.