Sunday, November 18, 2007 @ 1:55 PM
how many times in life you felt so exasperated and dont know what to do.
how many times in life you tried to avoid certain things when you knew they were tough to be met. avoiding is bad cos once it comes back, it'll hit you hard.
wasted too much time and energy on minute things. it really isnt worth it. there're bigger things around me.
went jogging yesterday. it was not those happy jogs that i always have. i played at the swing. there isnt anyone around at the playground, it's dark at night.
obviously, danger looms in the air. but i dont care. i felt so out of breathe but i keep running, keep climbing those bridges. sounds mad, but i believe in tiring myself physically.
self avoidance again.
being happy is not easy. but i will try.
i started to pray about a few months ago. not a devout believer but praying helps to calm me down.
woke up with a headache today. the weather is pretty hot too, so do drink lots of water. yup.
dont need to know what's bothering me. dont need to say anything.
i wont waste time on simple things. so dont waste time trying to hurt me. it used to work in the past but no longer now.
sorry if reading my entry spoils your mood.
i just need an avenue to voice out.
tomorrow will be a better day.